My last rant
This is the last time I am going to whine about my near marathon experience. I am still pretty upset about it and still cannot believe it is not behind me. I dread going in to work tomorrow and having to talk about it all day. I really hope everyone heard the news and I can go on with my day. It really shouldn’t be that big of a deal to me, but it is. This was supposed to be the day…
But here is the clincher… not only did I miss my big day but I lost so much fitness over the past few months. HOW does someone run miles and miles a week and be in worse shape then before? I know I talked about this yesterday, too, but it is amazing. Scarlette reminded me that we certainly improved our cardio endurance and fitness. My heart rate is as low as it has ever been but there is more than that to fitness.
I did my first day of my second round of P90X today. Seriously? I could hardly do most of the moves. I am doing the Lean version which has a lot of core work and cardio. Today I did Core Synergistics which used to be my favorite. I struggled through the whole thing. My abs are weak and my upper body is weak. It is going to take the whole three months to regain what I have lost!
Like I said yesterday, lessons learned – I will never get consumed with one thing anymore. Balance is the key – you have to mix things up or get stale. Plus, the major, crushing disappointment of missing ONE race will not be so tough.
Another thing I realized is that I have to improve my “mental edge”. I am having some pretty strong regrets that I didn’t run the whole thing despite it being canceled. Many people did. Why did I just run 13.25 miles? Sure, technically I was not prepared to support my run myself – I had no fuel belt, no Gu’s, no aid stations…. but I didn’t really try to figure it out. I was just too crushed to think past the words “the marathon is canceled”. Earlier on Saturday when they first started talking about the possibility I was already starting to doubt myself. By the time the words came I had all but given up. I could not shake my disappointment and overcome. I have to work on that.
OK. That’s it… I am done. There is nothing I can do to change what happened this weekend. All I can do is move forward and get better.
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