13 weeks to relax
13 weeks to the marathon. 13 weeks to figure out how to relax. That might seem odd, but I have to figure out a way to calm the nerves before race day. I realized… well, that is not the right word, that even for my training runs I get anxious. I worry that I am not going to run well, or be in pain, or have to walk too much, or run to slowly… why on earth would I worry about these things? They make medicine for these issues, but I refuse to take it. I have to figure out a way to just calm down.
I started my marathon training this year about the same time I applied for a new position… a position that would be a big promotion. Since I applied I have been worked up about being the right person, being prepared, making sure I was selling myself. I had it nailed. Same with training – with every workout I am trying to be prepared, have the right form, run the right pace… all these details. I just wanted to be perfect. I want to execute perfectly to succeed.
Well, needless to say, I didn’t get the job. I found out on Friday that they picked someone else. How could that be? I was the perfect person – I did everything right, I prepared, rehearsed, worried. I bet the person that got it didn’t worry as much as I did.
This is precisely what I do all the time. I don’t remember always being a worrier, but maybe I have… or is it just the past few years? Either way I worried daily over my training for my last marathon attempt and we all know where that got me. I have to have a different outcome this year. I have to get this mental game right.
I bought the books and I am diligently reading them. Today is my rest day and this week is a recovery week. I have been training for 6 weeks already and I am already worried about race day. So ridiculous! It’s not like I am going to win. I need to just enjoy the training and have fun.
So, here’s to relaxing!
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